Our Little Big Family...

Our Little Big Family...

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Lots of new little happenings

 It has been way too long since I have been on this thing.  I kind of actually forgot about it for a while..sad.  Guess that is what happens then I am homeschooling and have twins and all of that!  But I had to blog tonight even though it is late to write a few things down so I don't forget them.  So here goes...not necessarily in order though...

As of yesterday, December 8, Brody is officially rolling regularly.  He could do it before, but he only did it once in a while.  Same with Delaney.  BUt now they both roll at lesat a few times a day.  And they have hit that wonderl stage where every time I try to change their diaper or take off or put on their clothes, they are twisting and turnign and trying to roll away form me!  What a pain.  But it is so cute to see them progress.  She seems to touch things a little more, like our little touch-feely boook with bunny and baby duck hair in it.  She touches the book pages as we are reading them.  He does this a little , more and more each day also.


We had their four month well checks last Tuesday ,December 1.  B rody weighted in at a whopping 15 pounds 6.75 oz, and Delaney was 11 pounds 8 oz!  What a difference!  Totally amazing.  He is all muscle and bones though; she actually has more fat rolls than he does.  And they basically eat at the same time all day...the only difference is that he was waking p in the middle of the night pretty much the whole time and getting an extra feeding.  I don't know if this could have made that much of a difference or if he is just built bigger.  His feet are so much bigger than hers---length and thickness.  

Tonight was a first, I think.  Scott is on nights so I am home with the kids alone.  I nursed Brody until he was pulling off tired and then carried him in.  Usually he cries for anywhere form 2-10 minutes before falling asleep.   When I laid him down, he was smiling at me.  When I went to kiss him, he opened his mouth like he was trying to kiss me back!!!  It was so cool!  He did it several times, because I wanted to see if it was a fluke or something--must not have been , because he kept doing it.  It made me feel special.  Then I held him for a minute in stead of laying him down.  Weston and I sang to him a few songs:  Twinkle, Twinkle, I am a Child of God, and the song I made up for Weston way back then, "Night night."  I laid him down completely awake and walked out, ready for his scream.  NONE!!!!  He made a few little talking noises but no fussing or anything!!! Wow, amazing.  And not last night but the night before, BOTH babies slept in until 8 and 8:30!!!  Brody til 8, Delaney til 8:30.  Totally fantastic!  Maybe now I won't feel like a walking zombie all of the time.

We went to LV to see Chase and M and D last week.  The trip was not so great---had to stop 3 times on the way there...for Weston to go to the bathroom!  Poor guy had diarrhea and then had to pee like 30 minutes apart!  Delaney slept the WHOLE way there!  And Brody only woke up I think because we had to stop that third time; this is when he got up and ate and went pee.

We are still doing EC, or Elimination Communication, with the babies.  It is so cool how many people we tell about it are open-minded and want to learn more about it.  Karla, the MA at our pediatrician's office, tells all of her parents about it.  Heck, even our dermatologist tells his patients about it! When Scott was out in his waiting room, he heard Dr. Marshall telling a patient about it as she left, and he did not even know Scott was sitting there!  Crazy.  But it is so cool.  USUALLY we catch the poopy diapers and try not to have any in one day.  It seems like the babies both have a pattern of pooping in the early evening, around five or six.  They both went at the SAME time tonight!  We have even been catching some pees, where their diapers are dry and able to be put back on them.  Now that is cool but very hard to do with two babies.   But now that I know about EC, I don't think I could NOT do it!  It is such a cool thing.

Brody plays with his hands constantly and tries to shove them both (fists) into his mouth!  He sometimes gags himself.   Lately he has wanted to be held more than usual, especially today.  And we are thinking that he is or just was going through a growing spurt?   They have both been wanting to eat ore often too-still around 3 hours betweeen.  Dr Sean said Brody could start out on solids, but I would rather wait until he is 6 months old.

Weston is so cute.  He tries to repeat sayings that he hears us say, but they don't always sound like the originals.  Today it was, "Delaney is talking a storm!"  What he means is, she is talking UP a storm.  But he does that sometimes, and that is so cute.  What a great kid.

And Azbrielle is such a loving girl.  I love that about her.  They are both doing so great in homeschool, even though sometimes they have a hard time staying on task.  Not sure why all of a sudden...?!   It seems to be getting worse, not better...we will see what happens.  But they have started MCP PE and Court Club PE and LOVE it!  So hopefully they are getting some more exercise.

Gotta go to bed before Brody wakes up before I even go to bed.

I think tha tis all of the major news so far.  Delaney is still such a smiley girl, and Brody makes you earn it!  It is almost even more special when he has to study you first for a minute to decide if  you deserve a smile or not!  He always looks at me and watches me, even if I am talking to or looking at someone else.  He especially does this when he is nursing but basically all the time.   I don't know if I have ever had a baby do that to me before.

Well we broke down and got an IMac!  Wow...what an expensive computer!  WE went in to get the cheapest Mac and came out with the biggest and most expensive in the store...ouch!!!  But it sure is beautiful and cool.  I am still trying to learn all the tricks and how to do things though!

Scott is getting his raises and lots of training in his new mechanic position, which is great.  He earns more money there and is building his resume on them.  Sweet.

I have decided to go back winter quarter starting Jan. 4 and teach rad lab with Fran on Fridays from 9-3.  It is so weird being away from the babies that long...yuck.  BUt Lisa said she will watch them, and the kids will help out too I am sure.   Scott only works two Fridays a month, so he will have them when he is off.  And we are going to join Court Club I think until Gold's is ready.  We signed up for Gold's but it won't be ready til summer.   Bummer.

Okay good night...try to come back soon and I need to post some family portrait pics that we got taken at Lake Sacajawea last Wednesday by Dave Rubert---fantastic photos!  fddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Happy Veteran's Day

I cannot let this day go by without a quick posting saying thank you to all of the men and women serving our country and fighting for our freedom and ways of life here in America.  I truly feel indebted to them and also to their families who have to live without them for so long---and sometimes forever :(.  The people who choose to go into the military truly are brave and strong and sacrifice so much.  Thank you again to all of you...and my favorite saying: HOME OF THE FREE BECAUSE OF THE BRAVE!!  We pray for you every day.  We have several friends and family members overseas right now, as I know many people do.  THANK YOU!

Milestones

Well today seems to be a big day for the babies.  Weston and I watched Brody roll over this morning from his back to his tummy--again all he had left was his arm stuck underneath him; otherwise he was all the way there!  And then tonight Delaney--not to be outdone--rolled over for the kids and I from her tummy to her back!  Just...plop!  There she went!  It was so cute.  Then when I tried to put her back onto her tummy to do it again, she just got mad and laid there and screamed.  Maybe tomorrow?!  I don't even know if Delaney really realized what she did.  Brody seemed to kind of get it and feels some sort of excitement about what he could do with this newfound mobility.  But he didn't try it again yet either. 

Two days ago, on Monday, Brody discovered his squealing voice!  It is SOOOO cute.  He gets this high-pitched squeal and does it on purpose.  He did it about eight times in the 15 minutes or so that he was interacting with Scott. 

Lastly Delaney finally discovered that she has two hands that can touch too!  As I was nursing her tonight, she started playing with her hands while she was looking up at me.  Brody has this thing where he always "talks with his mouth full" (this is what I call it)--while he is nursing he will start trying to talk and laugh and spit milk all over my face!  But how can you get mad at that---it is so adorable.  Usually Delaney is not much into interacting while she is eating other than holding onto my hand or my skin; but tonight when Brody was falling asleep nursing, she was actually talking and smiling at me too.  They are so sweet and such blessings. 

And Azbrielle and Weston---wow they are so fantastic!  The best helpers ever and also with the best attitudes about their siblings!  I hear, "I love Brody and Delaney" so many times every day from them, especially Weston.  Instead of being jealous of all the time and attention I have to give the babies, they just seem to love them even more.  Truly amazing.  What good kids.  They are doing so well with their homeschooling and seem to genuinely like it.  They do miss the kids at public school--especially Weston--but that will be better once we start MCP in January.  Now that the babies are getting a little older and eat more like every 3 hours instead of every two, hopefully we will start getting out of the house a little more often.  I think we are all going a little stircrazy. 

I am amazed every day at how smart the kids are and how they soak up knowledge like sponges.  We as a society truly underestimate the abilities of children.  So Brody and Delaney are hopefully going to be prime examples of how much babies can learn.  We are going to order that Your Baby Can Read program here really soon and start that.  It will be interesting to see how it works.  Before we know it, it will be time to start sign language too!  I am sure the kids will be great at helping with that. 

Gotta go to bed-it is soo late.  And I am afraid that I am getting sick too.  Oh, and for some ridiculous reason Brody has regressed to getting up like every two hours in the night the last few nights!  Of course it would have to be when Scott is on nights too :(.  And now that the babies are sharing rooms with the older kids, I can't exactly let him cry it out.  It kind of sucks, and I am not sure exactly how to handle it without waking the other three kids up. 

I miss my honey!  And it was so good to see my big "baby" Chase this weekend--although I didn't get to see him nearly as much as I should have.  He went hunting with my dad on Sat and stayed with Drew and Jake Sat night.  It was kind of a bummer and WILL NOT be that way next time! 

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

I have hands!

Brody discovered the fact that he has two hands and that they can touch each other the other day!  It was last Thursday, October 29.  Now he has his hands clasped and intertwined more often than not.  It is so cute.  He also sucks his thumb more these days, which is not a good thing...but the way he does it is so cute.  He has not figured out that he can put his fingers down and just have the thumb extended.  He basically covers his face with the other four fingers splayed out and awkwardly tries to suck the thumb.  I have never seen a child do it; it is so adorable.  I will add a pic soon, now that I know how to do it!  yay! 

We are heading to the other side of the mtns here in a few  minutes.  We are travelling at night hopefully to make the trip less stressful...I am praying that Scott will be able to stay awake!  He is napping now, and I am feeding babies.  It will be a long trip--always is--but should be worth it.  We get to see Chase and Mom and Dad for about 5 days.  Now that we are HOMESCHOOLING!!!   we get to take off on Scott's weeks off.  How exciting!  I will post later this week about how that is going...and I need to remember to email my MCP consultant Melissa too! 

Gotta go pump so we can get out of here!  Getting late!

Oh yeah one more thing--Brody rolled over last night--we think!  He was on the floor on his back right next to Scott's knee while he was taking Delaney to the bathroom.  None of us was really watching, but all of a sudden Scott said he rolled over!  He was on his tummy with his left arm still stuck underneath him!  We tried to roll him back over to see if he would do it again, but he just got mad and started screaming.  Pretty exciting though!  He seems so young!  What a big, strong boy.  We love our babies---ALL of them!  Miss you Chase!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

Canteloupe!

Azbrielle cracks me up...We are watching a movie (on our new projector and huge screen!), and there are animals on it.  It is the new DisneyNature--(very graphic, sad) and some deer-like animals come on there.  She shouts, "Canteloupe!  Canteloupe!"  meaning of course that she thought they were antelope.  It was so cute.

Sis seems like she may be getting sick now too...not again!  What a nightmare.  Went and bought more masks today at Walgreens because we are out of my DH ones...wow! Talk about expensive!  $6.99 for 10 masks!  Crazy.  But better safe than sorry...too bad we have to keep reminding them OVER and OVER to put them on!  They love the babies so much and are always trying to get close to them and talk and sing and play...but they forget to have their masks on and they are sick!!  Scott and I are nervous wrecks that the babies are going to get sick.  Won't be soon enough to pull the out of public school where all of this sickness is going around.  Nightmare.  If we didn't have the babies it would not be as big of a deal--Azbrielle and Weston can handle it now.  But it is the elderly and babies that can be most seriously affected...we will keep praying for health in our family.

I still have not taken the babies to church..and they are three months old.  Now it is the height of the sick season, so I am not too excited about taking them yet either.  Scott and I have been trading off halfway in the middle of the second hour when he is off so that we can both at least go to a little bit of church.  But tomorrow is a new adventure...Scott will be sleeping because he is on nights, and I have to at least go to sacrament because  the kids have their primary program tomorrow!  So not only do I have to take everyone by myself, but we have to be early too!!??  Righttttttt.  I will do my best.

So I am going to go do a CE class online and then go to bed...hopefully get some sleep so I can drag my bum out of bed in the am! Oh yeah...the last two nights when Scott was home and helping me, the babies slept a lot!  Thalaney slept from like 7:30 pm til 11and ate and then til 5:30 or so and then ate and went back to bed til 7:30 or 8, and Brody did the same except from about 12.  Then last night I don't really remember the exact times, but again they slept like a 6-hour chunk then got up and went to the bathroom and then ate and went back down til 8 or so!  Wow!  Now if only they will do that for me tonight when I am here on my own...

And to my Scottie...Miss you honey!  Have a safe night and can't wait to snuggle.  Love you! 

Monday, October 19, 2009

Tooth Fairy

Azbrielle lost another tooth yesterday---it was #Q, her LR lateral incisor.  #26 is already coming in behind where Q fell out; I really think there is a good chance she will end up with braces :(.  Now #D is getting loose too.  She is totally toothless on the front; she lost E and F a few months back.  She always waits until they are seriously just hanging there (usually by the front part of the root) and won't let us pull them out.  Last night when Fran and Jake were here, she let him pull it out for her with a kleenex.  Now she has lost five total and already has 24 and 25 erupted.  Go Sis!  And she LOVES it when the tooth fairy comes.  She actually came on time last night!  Woo Hoo.  She has been showing up a few days late lately.  Maybe we move so much she cannot find us??!!  Ha ha but not really.

Monday, October 12, 2009

Oh no, please not the flu!!

Well, I think it is finally happening...the thing we have been fearing.  Weston is very sick this weekend.  His temp got all the way up to 105 today---if it would not have come down with more meds, he would have landed in the ER.  And it is even more scary because of what happened to baby Emmett.  I am sure that was just a freak thing, but it obviously happens.  Not only are we worried about Weston, who is absolutely miserable with a horrible headache, sore throat, cough, moaning and groaning, etc...but we are also terrified that the babies will end up with it and really have to be in the hospital.  It is so scary.  All this talk about the "swine flu" and everything--it will be an epidemic, get the vaccine, hurry hurry!  NO way will any of us get the vaccine--mark my words, in 10 years people will be sick or dying or something because they got the stupid vaccine and what?  Long term effects?  You have got to be kidding!  Oh, maybe that is because there was not time for research to be done before they approved the shot!  Not us...we will just suffer through the sickness and pray for the best.  But it is so widespread now that they are not even testing for it anymore last we heard at our peds office.  So does Weston have the pig flu?  Who knows.  We probably never will.  But he is definitely pretty sick, and we are praying he starts feeling better soon.  I hate seeing him so miserable and hearing him moaning in his bed because he hurts so bad.  And tonight he got up (because he had to pee I think) and came out to the living room out of the blue and gave me a hug...what a doll.  I kind of thought maybe he was disoriented or delirious or something, just because he almost seemed not all with it.  But hey, I will love those hugs however I can get them.  Scott went in there with him and got him back to bed.  Pray for health in our home...

Weight updates

Holy smokes!  Brody is tipping the scales at a whopping 13.5 pounds!  Yeah Brody!  And he is leaving his twin sister in the dust---Delaney is barely 10 pounds!  But that is a long way from the 5'9oz that she got down to, so we will take it!  It is so amazing how differently they are built!  He is pretty much into 3-6 month clothes only now; he is out of all of the newborn clothes and 0-3 month stuff.  Crazy.  And he is only 11 weeks old today! 

And tonight when he was having his "tummy time"  (they both HATE tummy time and end up having a screaming match and we feel like crap but all the parenting/ baby books and doctors say they are supposed to have it!), he actually scooted a little bit.  Scott saw it not me, and he said he seriously scooted like 6 inches with his arms and knees.  Doesn't surprise me--his nickname is "Moose".   Delaney's nickname is "Squeak" or "Squeaky"--give you one guess where that one came from?!

Cheeks

Azbrielle cracks me up.  I had Brody on the potty chair tonight, and he was jabbering away.  He seems to like sitting on the potty, at least until he is done and ready to get off--which he alerts us to by screaming.  But anyways, here he sits just talking and cooing and smiling at Azbrielle.  She says, "He's got big cheeks."  I said yes he does have big cheeks...to which she replied, "He looks like a grandpa."  Cracked me up.  I kind of understand what she means though; like our other two boys, he kind of looks like a little man instead of a baby.  It was so cute.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Circumcision

A couple nights ago one of my friends who is very into AP (attachment parenting) posted an article/ blog about circumcision on baby boys.  I have always just decided to do it without thinking much of it; that's what you do right?  Well maybe not...maybe that is our problem of not thinking about it.  I mean, it is a permanent thing and a decision we are making for the boys without any input from them of course.  And you cannot tell me it does not hurt!!!  Like it pointed out in the blog, God does not give us anything on our bodies that does not have a purpose.  Low and behold, I guess the foreskin is actually an organ and has many purposes.  Great.  Now I feel like crap.  Since we had Brody circed just 7 weeks ago, I guess it is a little late.  But I feel bad---for all of them.  I am sorry guys.  I am glad of course that we did not have any infections or anything, but I am sorry that I put you through that and also that I took it away from you.  I would definitely research more and rethink it if I could...Hey Dr. Sean, can we sew that back on there????

Chase

Boy do I miss him...even with his sometimes bad attitude!  Hope he had a good week at school; I am going to call him tomorrow.  Sure would be nice if he called me; but I guess that must be "too much" to ask for?!  Probably having too much fun to think about us over here...I love him so much and worry about him and pray for him constantly.  I hope he turns out okay...and is happy...

Weston

He did the cutest thing last night.  He wanted one or both of us to come tuck him in like we always do.  I went in there a few minutes after he did, and he was laying awake in his bed with his head on the pillow but his covers down at the foot of the bed.  As it is getting mighty cold here suddenly and he only had underwear on, I asked him why he did not have his covers on?!  Of course he had the best answer: "I was waiting for you to do it when you tuck me in!"  Love that boy...

More about exercise

We really want to join the local gym; the good one around here is supposed to be the Tri City Court Club here in Kennewick.  The dues are not that expensive; like $95 or something for the whole family including karate, swimming pool, fitness classes, rock climbing, etc...great!  Cool!  Sign us up!  Wait, what?  Daycare?  Oh, how much is that?  Is it separate?  What???!!  You mean it would be another $100 for unlimited daycare for three kids under 6 EVERY MONTH?!  I think not.  Crazy. Sucks.  So there goes that idea...guess we have to stick to the treadmill and our kickboxing here--which actually is a great workout when we use the bag out back and hit and kick.  It is just that motivation thing again...and making time while we are at home to do it!  A girl at church does a great combo class two days a week at the church building; it is just that I have only been able to make it to one session in the last three weeks!  Dr. appts or Scott is at work.  And next Monday when I should be able to go because he is off, we have a homeschool info meeting at 9, right when it starts!  Go figure...

Nic

Well, I am finally motivating myself to get on the treadmill again.  It seems like a daily battle, even though I know in my mind that my body can handle it and it will drastically help me in every way.  Running helps boost my metabolism (and hence elimination schedule regularity--yeah!! :)), my mood, my feelings of well-being and self-worth/esteem, hopefully my figure at least a little, lessens my chances of getting Type II Diabetes, and is great for my heart and lungs and circ system.  I know, I know...it is great for me.  It just sucks being out of shape and going through that crappy first two weeks getting back into it. I started last week or maybe even the week before--yeah, I think it was the week before.  But then I didn't run maybe only once last week; that doesn't help much! Duh.  But I ran yesterday for over half hour and then again for 33 minutes (okay, that included my cool-down too, so I didn't run the entire time!).  I think tonight I ran without stopping  for 2.5 miles for about 30 minutes and then cooled down.  Yesterday I did sprints and got up to 8 mph, which is pretty fast for me.  Wonder if I could do 9mph on my 15 second sprint?  Maybe I will try it next time; as long as I can reach that stop button if I need it!  I just keep praying for the strength to overcome my weeniness and Satan's pull of slothfulness and laziness so that I get my butt out there every day except Sundays.  Even one mile a day is better than none!  Sometimes I need a break and just need to let my body do only one mile.  Maybe it can be an uphill mile?!  And actually walking up hills sometimes gets me just as tired as when I run; and it works different muscles more than running.  But there is something depressing about walking for me; it just seems like I have limited time and that I should be getting as much distance out of it as I can by going faster.  I don't know...that is probably dumb, because like I said walking up steep hills definitely gets me out of breath!  Probably I should do it more, because I end up getting lazy and just taking the "easy way" of running faster on 0% incline instead!  Oh well...as long as I drag my butt on it at this point that is a start.

Tonight Scott was home to take care of the babies while I was on there, which was great.  The last few times I have done it I have been home by myself, and it was really hard when the babies started crying in the middle of my run.  Not like I want to stop in the middle or anything...or rather, I do want to stop but not start again! LOL.  I told him tonight I was just going to run one mile, that is all I wanted...and I ended up running almost 3!  That was so cool.  I kind of have to trick my mind I think: if I go into it thinking I am running 3 miles today, I will feel discouraged and like I will never make it.  But if I think I am just running one mile (which is really the hardest part, the beginning), then when I get to a mile I think, "Hey, I can do a little more..." and end up doing more.  Crazy.  It was 46 degrees out tonight when I ran, and it was perfect!  Wish I could run in that all the time.  I was listening to Avril Lavigne, and it was MY time...kind of nice.

Catch up: Brody's belly button


Well I will try to post this...I am crying and so sad about Emmett.  I was so excited now that everyone is in bed to sit down and post a few entries to the blog, but then I checked my email and found out about baby Emmett.  So I might try to do one or two, but I just don't really feel like blogging about my life much.  I kind of feel like throwing up actually.

I am going to do some catch-up entries on things from the past couple months; so anything from the past will be labelled "Catch Up". 

The first catch-up entry is a quick one: Brody's hernia.  We were so happy that the babies' belly buttons looked so nice after their little belly things fell off.  Such nice little belly buttons.  Then about 3-4 weeks ago, Brody's belly button looked like it was growing...and growing...and then it was definitely growing.  Wait a minute, belly buttons are not supposed to grow!  Then we finally had an idea what was going on:  he had a hernia.  How scary!  You mean all that squishy stuff sticking out is his intestines?  No way.  Sick.  Ouch.  Is he ok?  When we went to their (first) 2-month visit when they were actually 8 weeks old, he had had it about a week.  We asked Dr. Sean, and he said yes it is a hernia.  He did not seem too worried or even surprised for that matter.  He says it will resolve itself but may take up to a year.  A year!?  It sticks out way more than his penis!  A year?!  We are worried about the intestines getting strangled in there.  He said that is a rare possiblilty and we should just watch to make sure that it can still push back in.  Sure, no worries.  No stress.  Not!

So now we all push it back in when we think about it---gently of course.  He does not seem bothered by it either way.  The kids even do it sometimes.  It is kind of gross and unsightly, but as long as he is okay I guess it is okay.  Dr. Sean says as he develops his stomach muscles the hole will close; you can even feel the hole in there.  Our question is how does it close up without squeezing his guts in there?  Obviously we are keeping a very close eye on it.  We are actually going to us a penny or dime and that wrap stuff that is like an Ace bandage that sticks to itself and wrap it around his belly with a coin pushing the hernia in.  Dr. Sean actually told us about it but was not really suggesting it, just said that people in some other country or culture do that.  We think it sounds better than letting it all hang out there.  I hate to have him cry at all with it, because I am afraid he will push it out even further when he screams.  So he has not been allowed to cry much lately...not that he did much before anyways but now he really doesn't.

Okay, I took some pics but have no idea how to post them.  So as soon as I figure it out I will get them on here.

So sad...

Tonight is a very sad night.  We just found out that a family from church lost their most adorable 8-month old baby boy Emmett.  It just doesn't seem real.  It is not right.  It can't be true.  He was just here, laughing and smiling and being the perfect beautiful chubby baby boy.  How can that be?  What happened to him?  All we know at this point is that four days ago on Monday night he had to be admitted to the ER at KGH and then was life-flighted to Children's in Seattle that night.  They thought he had ADEM, which is a neurological condition similar to MS in many ways but not long-term; supposedly the patient just went through one or maybe two episodes anywhere from 5-10 days long and then that was it.  The scary part was supposed to be how much damage was done during the episode.  But no where did it mention in the description that death was an option.  That is not fair.  I cannot even imagine how they must be feeling...like Scott says, one minute your baby is sleeping peacefully and your life is wonderful with your beautiful family and the next minute your baby is dead?  How can that happen?  Why? 

What do we do for them?  How can we possibly do anything that will make a difference?  Do you talk about it?  Do you just give them hugs?  How do you not cry with them?  Is it ok to do that?  What would I want people to do for me?  Talk about it?  Or not?  I really cannot imagine...that is a parent's truly largest nightmare.  And it happened so fast.  Gloria from church said earlier today or yesterday that Emmett was out of pain and opening his eyes but still did not recognize anyone.  How agonizing.  We will pray for them and pray that God will help us know what to do for them.  At least we know that Emmett is home with Heavenly Father now...he is the lucky one.  Such a beautiful baby boy.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

Chase

Well it was kind of a shock when Chase got out of the Tahoe and came walking towards me.  He really has grown in the last 6 weeks!  I cannot believe that he is taller and broader--in that short of a time period.  He is going to be barrel-chested just like his dad.  Of course he thinks it is great that he is getting bigger and bigger than his mom.  I think he was glad to be at home at first, but then he got bored--big surprise.  He had a great time holding the babies though and still seems so attached.  Azbrielle and Weston miss him a ton and were wrestling with him and soaking up any attention he would give them.  They had a good time and were sad to see him leave.  He seems to be doing well in school and at his dad's--which is good for him but makes me a little sad if I am totally honest.  Of course I want him to succeed and be the best person possible, but it still hurts that he would rather be over there.  I tried to give him so much and raise him as well as I could---but I guess I do understand him wanting to try living with his dad.  And of course there are way fewer rules there--and no siblings to share attention or anything else with.  Kind of like a permanent Disneyland.  And he got a new puppy, which is cool.  Better them than me right now!  That is one thing I cannot do for him--get a new puppy! 

I miss him tons and am sad he is not here--but I am glad he is doing so well.  He seems to really be happy there, at least so far.  Love ya bud!

Grandma and Grandpa came to visit and brought Chase home!

We got lucky enough to see Chase and Grandma Sally and Grandpa Gary this weekend!  They made the long trek over to visit, and we had a wonderful weekend with them.  We all miss them SOOO much!  They could not believe how much the babies had changed in the last month and a half.  Chase of course was glued to the babies and kept asking if they were done eating so he could hold them and burp them.  Amazing how attached he is to them.  Azbrielle and Weston kept bombarding Grandpa with card games to play; they miss their grandparents so much.  If Scott could get a good job over there, we would move back to be closer--even though the rain sucks and we love it here!  We will see how it goes after this job is over; maybe Scott will become a journeyman mechanic and more doors will open for us.  Until then, guess we have to miss each other and just make the most out of every visit.  The cool thing is that if we do go through with the homeschooling, we will be able to go visit and stay a while on Scott's week off once a month or so.  How nice.  It is just hard to make the trip with the babies being so little and having to take so much stuff.  Now that we don't need our air conditioning though, we should be able to drive the suburban.  So we will have more room! 

I have to figure out how to add some pictures onto this blog---I am not sure how to do it.  I know you can, because all of my friends have them--and even music!  I am so behind on all of this stuff. 

Bedtime

It is amazing how different Brody and Delaney are in so many ways.  We can lay Delaney down wide awake in her bed and not hear a peep other than her sucking on her fingers (whichever ones she can get into her mouth), and then Brody is a whole other story.  He is so high maintenance!  I always make sure he is topped off, taken to the bathroom, dry diaper, completely burped, feet covered, right temperature...and he still fusses when I lay him down!  I am hoping that he will learn to soothe himself like she does...but it is really hard for me to stay out of the room and not just go pick him up and rock him or top him off again!  I hate hearing him cry--I know, what mommy does not  hate hearing their baby cry--but I know that I cannot be his pacifier forever, nor do I want to.  He is full and dry and warm, and there is no reason that I need to go in there...  He finally went to bed after about 15 or maybe even 20 minutes of crying...after I went in there and did rock him and top him off once already!  And I went in and patted his tummy to try to comfort him once; I think he cried harder after I went out!  So much for that great advice.  Supposedly his crying will get shorter and shorter...Scott says we did this with Azbrielle really early and she did great.  I vaguely remember this, and she was in her own crib sleeping most of the night at around a month or so.  But Scott also says I fell off the wagon with Weston and would not let him cry at all.  That period of time is a blur in my memory with two babies so close together and Scott on nights all the time at the mine...but I do remember holding Weston and swaying with him right by his crib singing my goodnight song that I made up.  So he is probably very right.  I am trying to save my sanity by teaching the twins how to self-soothe.  We'll see how it goes...

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

My wish list...

Okay, now I have a wish list for expensive items.  I am sure my list is a little different than Scott's, but there are a few things I want.  We have to prioritize now, and it is amazing how my list has actually shrunk now that I am not working. 

First, we want to get that Your Baby Can Read program for the babies.  They can start it at three months, so we are running out of time to get that one; it is the first on the list for that reason. 

Then I want a sewing machine, because I really want to start sewing!  My Aunt Nadine and my mom's friends Peggy and Chris made these fantastic blankets and burp rags for us, and they are my favorite things..  I love them.  My friends Emeth and Corie are getting ready to have babies, and I would love to try out making something fairly easy like burp rags or something for them...the homemade things are truly my favorites, so I think others would like them too. 

Hmmm...then a new laptop.  It doesn't have to be fancy or expensive, but it will still be $600 or so.  I told Chase that I would give him this one at Jamie's once I get a new one, since he does not have a very good one to use there.  It drives me nuts, but it is better than nothing that he has there!  Right now he has to go use Grandma's computer, which only has dial up internet!  No wonder he has only emailed once so far; he probably doesn't have a spare few hours to wait for the internet!  LOL.  Scott and I decided that we would just pay for his satellite internet so he has access to it there for school.  Who knows when we will get one, but that is the plan.

Okay, now I have my wish list in writing!  :)  I also want tons of cloth diapers for the babies, which are not cheap (but neither are disposables)--so that will come first too! 

To homeschool or not to homeschool? That is the question...

Okay...so I think we are there...this will probably be the kids' last week in public schools!  It is kind of scary--really scary--to go against the grain, but both Scott and I feel pretty strongly that we don't like the way public school is going at all.  The poor teachers do the best they can, but what do you expect with 29 kids in a class and at least a few of those (if not more) having behavior problems?  Azbrielle says the whole class has to put their heads down when one student is acting out---sometimes at least once a day!  And after Lisa homeschooled them this summer, they are so far ahead of what they are doing in class; Weston can do Azbrielle's work!  I feel bad, because it is nothing personal against the teachers.  We actually really like them--just not the rest of the situation.  So as of now they are still in school--I will keep the blog updated when we pull them.  Yesterday we scrambled again between feedings and changings to run around town and try to find a curriculum book to use.  Barnes and Noble only had 4-6 grades, Hastings only had 6th, and the learning store is closed down and empty!?  So we will probably order it online and hopefully have it next week.  We are on the waiting list for Columbia Virtual Academy out of Spokane, but we probably won't be able to start until next year due to the large demand.  Guess more people are figuring out that homeschooling may be the way to go?!  With CVA, each student gets $1200 to spend on curriculum, extracurricular activities (music, karate, piano, etc), etc!  Amazing!  And they also pay gas, etc for field trips!  So we are really excited to become a part of that program.  That is who our friends go through and love.  We will be using Calvert curriculum, which is supposed to be top-notch.  We would buy it on our own to use, but it is super expensive.  So Lisa said we should easily be able to get a curriculum book and use supplemental materials and make it through first grade if not part of second grade this year.  We are doing first grade for both kids. 

I am ready to throw this computer out the window...it is such a piece of junk.  But not until we can afford a new one...that could be a while!  It is so weird for me to not be working now and not just be able to go spend what I want.  I wouldn't change it for the world, though...I love staying home with my kids!

Funny story

Okay.  So here we are, Scott and I are trying to cram in our grocery shopping at Winco with the older kids at school and the babies between feedings and changings.  We thought we had it made...but of course it takes a while to navigate a huge store like Winco.  And of course since I have not gotten out much (even for shopping, since my fantastic husband has been doing it all for us:)), I want to look at everything!  Especially their bulk food section: we are starting to get our food storage going finally, so we are trying to decide what we want to have in our 5-gallon buckets.  And for some reason I find it interesting and fun to look at all of the bulk foods they offer--so we spent quite a bit of time there.  I had a list with me--I didn't think it was that long--of stuff that we needed.  As we got through a little over half the store and we were in the mayonnaise aisle, the fun began.  First it was the tiny little squeak from under the blanket that only comes from Delaney.  Scott and I looked at each other with dread...it was starting.  Within 30 seconds, we had two babies screaming from the top of their lungs and the entire aisle of people staring at us.  I knew what the problem was: I was sure they had to poop!  And it was then that I remembered that we had left the potty chair in the van, not the Navigator that we were driving that day.  Great.  Scrambling amidst the crying and stares, Scott shoved the baby cart at me and took the food cart and said, "Meet you in the car".  With a helpless feeling, I asked him what about the list?  And the food?  He told me that he would try to read my list and get the rest of what I wanted and checkout and meet me there.  Remember at Winco you have to bag your own stuff--and our cart was pretty full!  So I figured it would be a while til he got out there; I was on my own.

As I flew with the screaming babies through the store, I got looks of pity and irritation and who knows what else...you know, that sad little smile that says "Better her than me!", that kind of thing. How embarrassing.  And what are those people giving me those looks for?  I am not beating them, for goodness' sake--they are just hungry and have to go poop! 

When I finally made it to the car, I had to make that horrible decision that mothers of twins would understand so well: which one do I take care of first?  I figured it was the one who was screaming the loudest at the time--which happened to be Delaney.  Since Brody is much more of a whiner, when Delaney is screaming I know it must be bad.  Luckily we parked out a ways...because I grabbed her out of her seat, pulled off her pants and diaper, and squatted with her right there in the parking lot to let her go poop!  Since I had my back to the rest of the lot and the car between me and the street, I figured that there would not be too many people staring thinking I was nuts trying to get this tiny little baby to go to the bathroom in the middle of the Winco parking lot.  Within about 10 seconds she had shot out baby poop and pee in a pile on the ground and was much calmer.  She did have to go poop--great job, Delaney!  Somehow I managed to get them both to the bathroom (Brody only peed) and was feeding them both at the same time (even without my nursing pillows--amazing what you can do when you have to) in the front seat like nothing had happened when Scott got out there.  He almost stepped in the poop!  He was appalled that I had let them go to the bathroom in the lot, but what else was I supposed to do?  After all, it was only baby poop and pee!  It was probably dry within an hour of us leaving.  And really, I didn't care if it was or not!  It was really one of those times when you had to be there to appreciate the stress of the situation...but we made it!  Life with twins is such an adventure!  :)

Shot day!

Today the babies had to get their two-month immunizations...3 pokes and an oral!  The good news is that they save the oral one for last, so as the babies are screaming from the pokes, our great medical assistant sticks the oral meds in their mouths and they immediately quit crying!  So they have been a little fussy this afternoon, but not too bad so far.  They are sleeping for the moment, so I get a minute to write.  We were really researching the benefits vs. risks of immunizing so much, but for now we have decided to keep doing everything the AMA recommends and on the schedule they recommend.  Just seems like so much "stuff" to put into their little bodies!!  But the best news is now that they are officially two months old, they "magically" don't have to go to the hospital if they get a 100.4 degree fever--we can monitor it up to 103 now without them being admitted!  Don't ask me how their bodies are magically different now--I think it is one of those CYA things for the Dr.  When we went in for their two-month visit last Monday, Dr. Sean would not do their shots then---because although they were 8 weeks old, they were not "two months" until the 27th.  If they would have gotten a fever, as is expected after immunizations, then they would still have had to be admitted to the hospital.  So it is great to have made it over that hurdle without a hospital trip---guess all of our anal-retentiveness has paid off so far!  Now if we can just keep them from getting sick from the crap the other kids bring home...!

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Weston

Our big little man...he is so grown up these days.  And he has the CUTEST laugh lately; I have to get it on video or something, because I just LOVE it!  He is such a smarty and picks things up so quickly and REMEMBERS them!  He is dying to have loose teeth like his big sister, but they are still pretty tight in there.  We are going to have both kids do the first grade curriculum when we homeschool; he is not super far behind Sis, and we think they will learn well together.  Miss Lisa says he is gifted when she taught them this last summer.  He is definitely a blessing to our family, along with all of his siblings! 

Weston's hair seems to be getting darker...and it is amazing how fast his cute little tan has faded not being in the sun every day!  Before you know it he will be Mr. Whitey again this winter!  He is an amazing helper with the twins and always talks about how he will play with them and help them when they are bigger.  He wants them to follow him around and always asks if he will be seven when they are two?  But he hates to hear them cry; I often come out when I hear them crying to see him trying valiantly to shove a binky in their mouths to get them to be quiet!  But he is definitely in training to be a fantastic daddy! 

Okay, I HAVE to go to bed now before the babies wake up!  AHHH, it is after 1am!  I cannot write this much every time---but I have to get the basics on here.  Maybe tomorrow I will write anything interesting about Scott and me--if I can think of much besides our wonderful kids to talk about !  Haha.  Good night for now. 

Azbrielle

Little Miss Toothless!  Last Wednesday (9/23), she lost "E" and lost "F" before--so now she has no front teeth!  Actually #8 is already poking through; she is so excited!  She got $1.25 from the tooth fairy and thought that was pretty special.  She even talks different!  We keep telling her about the song "All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth";  we need to find it and let her listen to it! 

She is so smart and way above what they are doing in school; our big decision has come upon us about what we are doing for school for them.  After much discussion and praying and more discussion, I think we have decided to homeschool them--right now!  Nothing like taking on tons of tasks at once!  But I think it will be okay, even with the twins; and the older kids help out a lot with the babies too.  We will just have to use our baby down-time to do our school!  But it is a scary feeling to basically ditch public school; sorry, our kids are not coming back here, because we can do a better job!  But even in the Bible we are told to teach our own children as we feel they need to be taught; I need to search and find the scriptures that talk about that.  I learned about them when I took that homeschool class a few years back.

So this week may be their last in public schools; at least for now.   With this swine flu going around, seems like a pretty good time to get them out so they don't bring it home to us and the babies!

Chase

I really need to go to bed (I am eating up my valuable sleep time here!), but I don't want to leave out the other kids too!  I talked to Chase tonight; I miss him so much.  It was really hard for me and Scott to decide to let him try living with Jamie, but we feel like it was the right thing to do for him.  I don't want him to resent me for the rest of his life because I never let him try living with his dad.  After all, I would have freaked out if I had to be away from my dad when I was young.  I know it is different, because Chase never knew Jamie and I together; but he is still his dad. So there he is; he seems to be happy and doing well, which I guess I am happy about but sad at the same time.  I guess I have to admit there is a small part of me that was hoping he would hate it there and want to come running back home after a few weeks!  But that is not realistic; just selfish.  I do want him to be happy and successful, and if he can do that there, more power to him.  Like Scott says, we did our best to give him a good foundation the last 13 years; now it is up to him to see what kind of young man he becomes.  I just pray for him that he lets God shine in his life and feels the Spirit; he knows what is right, but will he listen?

He seems to be doing well in school so far.  They had a conference today--Jamie's first ever!  Too bad it was a ridiculous one--they have only had school for a couple of weeks!  What is there to talk about yet?!  I am still hoping they will move him up, at least in math; I think he is beyond where they are, and I don't want him to fall back to their level and get lazy.  He needs to be challenged to use that great brain of his!  I miss him so much, and I hope he misses me too; he did send me an email a week or so ago, which was kind of cool!

Delaney

Little Miss Delaney is still so sweet and petite--I am worried she will never grow!  She also has come so far though...since she dropped ALL the way down to a scary 5'9oz, she has come a very long way to get back up to 9'8oz!  But it seems like she has plateaued.  Scott keeps telling me to quit comparing the two, and that if we didn't have the moose Brody to compare her growth to, we would be fine with it.  I know everyone is built different, but I would love to see her put on some more pounds! 

On the other hand, she is doing great at her social skills!  She is so smiley and tries SO hard to talk!  We can usually get 5-10 minutes at a time of interaction before she gets tired of it.  She is following me and the kids around with her eyes pretty well now and also talks to her butterflies on her swing.  Her big blue eyes are so pretty; will they stay blue?  We shall see...she may be the only blue-eyed one in the family! 

Neither one of them is too hip on their tummy time; usually it just turns into a cryfest.  But they are supposed to have it, so I make them do it at least for a few minutes a day.  Sometimes kind of painful for me to listen to!  Good time to go hang some laundry...doesn't seem to help if I lay on the fltor with them and try to play; they are crying so hard they don't even seem to know I am there most of the time!  But now they are starting to lift up their upper bodies with their arms, so I guess something good is coming out of it! 

The kids call her "Laney"--especially Weston.  I like that nickname and figured it would be used when we picked the name, but I still love the full name Delaney.  Mom is right--it fits her.  So she is Miss tiny and lively these days.  She has so many cute summer  clothes, and it is getting chillier and chillier these days; she will never even get to wear them all!  So sad.  We got so many cute clothes this summer at garage sales and also from my cousin Danielle; it is too bad when they don't even wear all that they have!  Guess that is when you know they have too many clothes?

Delaney is doing great at EC also; for a while we thought she was constipated, but now she poops as often as Brody in the potty chair!  She pees pretty much every time, even if she had a wet diaper.  And very rarely does she have more than a skidmark either; we are so proud of them both!  Amazing what babies are capable of; just think how much we discount them and don't give them enough credit!  I truly believe they hold it as long as they can so they don't have to go in their diaper.  So cool. 

It is so fun to watch Delaney and Brody change; I am trying to enjoy every single day with them instead of wishing they would reach the next stage.  Seems like that is how you waste your life (and their childhoods) away--wishing they would do something exciting as they grow!  I still can't wait until they hit their next stages, but I also know that they won't ever be at these stages again, and sadly I am not having any more babies!  Never thought I would say it that way...amazing how things change.

Grandma and Grandpa are coming to visit this weekend, and they are bringing big brother Chase!  He will be so excited to see the babies (even if he pretends he isn't), and we are SO excited to see him!  We are counting down the days.

Brody

Brody has herniated his belly button--it is pretty scary looking, actually.  And it is gross to feel it and push it back in; it makes this sickening crackly noise and you can feel the stuff inside there, along with the hole where everything is squishing out!  Dr. Sean says it will fix itself--sure hope he knows what he is talking about!  Seems like it is getting bigger to me.

EC seems to be going well for Brody, especially with the poops.  Sometimes he does not even have any skidmarks or anything in his diaper and waits until we set him on the chair to go poop!  What a good boy.  Only one problem...he has a fountain for a penis!  Scott said there must be something wrong with it, because it always sprays straight up!  Haha.  Yucky to say, but he has peed on our new carpet a few...or many...times!  It is just baby pee, right?!  Ugh... But at least he is trying to make it in the chair; it is not his fault that it is such a powerful stream it bounces off!

He is growing so fast; he is heavy these days!  So solid, like lifting a solid brick.  And he is getting so cute!  Finally starting to smile and interact; it has taken him about a week and a half longer than Delaney!  But he definitely has her beat in the physical development part; he has an easy two pounds on her literally.  Pretty much into 3-6 month clothes now!  Wow.  Pretty good when he got down to 6'11 oz.  He was 11'7pz yesterday.  He does not look us in the eyes as often as his sister, but he is starting to try to talk like her and also he talks to the animals on his swing as they go around and around his head.  I think he talks to himself in the mirror too; it is so cute!  I love him so much!  It is so fun to watch him and his sister grow.

A day in the life

Well, today was pretty much like any other day when Scott works...lots of nursing and changing diapers and trying to entertain/ take care of the older kids and maybe even slip in a load of laundry (and hang it on the line) and some dishes too--and keep everyone quiet while he is sleeping!  But today we kept Azbrielle and Weston home from school--mostly to keep them from getting sick from other kids but also because she had a temp of 102 yesterday morning and could not go to church.  She slept most of the day and was pretty much quarantined to her room so she did not get the babies sick!  Weston and Azbrielle have been wearing masks in the house all weekend...at lest they are SUPPOSED to be wearing them!  About half the time it seems like they forget and don't have them on...only to be threatened to get them back on ASAP!  I know they are just kids, but they just don't get how important it is to keep the babies from getting sick--our Dr. told us that they will go right to the ER if they get a temp over 100.4. And wit h this ridiculous "swine flu" going around it is even more likely that they could get really sick; so scary.  Supposedly we have a bad outbreak here in TC.  But now that the babies have turned officially "two months", the doctor says that we will magically just monitor the temp until it reaches 103.  Sounds like a CYA deal to me; he would not even do their immunizations last week because they were only 8 weeks not "2 months"--if they had a slight reaction to the shot and had a fever, they would hit the hospital.  So now that they hit two months, they don't have to go to the hospital with the same fever/ reaction.  Ridiculous if you ask me (he didn't).

Didn't get to work out today; that is depressing.  But at the same time, it is hard to get back into it.  I know once I am doing it my body seems to like it...but it is just STARTING that is hard...do I really WANT to get all tired and sweaty and hate life for a while?  Not really...Maybe tomorrow will be better and I will be more inspired?  I have GOT to get rid of this horrible tummy.  I have seriously NEVER had anything like it, and I don't want to see it anymore!  Depressing to look in the mirror.  But the sugar addiction is so strong these days too...help!

Monday, September 28, 2009

Here I go...

Well, I am doing it. Officially. Becoming a blogger! As if I have any spare time to cram something else in. But I feel like this is a big one...trying to keep a record of our family's journey through life. I'm sure my blog won't be fancy or great like so many of my friends' blogs, but at this point I am just proud of myself for making one! Now let's see if I can keep up with it...

For now I am leaving it at this...the blog creation. It is late, all of the kids are in bed, and I am using up my precious sleep time! Hopefully I will get a few minutes tomorrow to add some pictures and post our daily happenings...like Brody's herniated belly button (with a picture of course), Azbrielle's sickness with Mom's accompanying stress attacks that the babies are going to get it, and so on...also the big decision...to homeschool or not to homeschool?

Good night all...sweet dreams! By the way...this is fun! I like it already! :)