Chase

I really need to go to bed (I am eating up my valuable sleep time here!), but I don't want to leave out the other kids too!  I talked to Chase tonight; I miss him so much.  It was really hard for me and Scott to decide to let him try living with Jamie, but we feel like it was the right thing to do for him.  I don't want him to resent me for the rest of his life because I never let him try living with his dad.  After all, I would have freaked out if I had to be away from my dad when I was young.  I know it is different, because Chase never knew Jamie and I together; but he is still his dad. So there he is; he seems to be happy and doing well, which I guess I am happy about but sad at the same time.  I guess I have to admit there is a small part of me that was hoping he would hate it there and want to come running back home after a few weeks!  But that is not realistic; just selfish.  I do want him to be happy and successful, and if he can do that there, more power to him.  Like Scott says, we did our best to give him a good foundation the last 13 years; now it is up to him to see what kind of young man he becomes.  I just pray for him that he lets God shine in his life and feels the Spirit; he knows what is right, but will he listen?

He seems to be doing well in school so far.  They had a conference today--Jamie's first ever!  Too bad it was a ridiculous one--they have only had school for a couple of weeks!  What is there to talk about yet?!  I am still hoping they will move him up, at least in math; I think he is beyond where they are, and I don't want him to fall back to their level and get lazy.  He needs to be challenged to use that great brain of his!  I miss him so much, and I hope he misses me too; he did send me an email a week or so ago, which was kind of cool!